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I've been noticing a few more followers in the past few weeks (that makes me feel so loved, yay!) and I just wanted to say a quick 'hi, how are ya!' and thanks! for visiting my little bloggy. 

Since I don't know some of you yet, I would love if you could leave a comment about yourself and your bloggy link so I can follow you back! 

Holla back y'all!

My Daily Mantra

Today I am pregnant. 

I cannot control whether or not this baby will live - only God knows that.

Reading about no heartbeats/yolk sacs/baby on 1st ultrasounds does not mean this will be my own outcome. 

I have been given a 4th chance, I cannot waste it on worrying.

and breathe.

Back on track

Good news ladies! 

Beta #3: 1208 (18dpo) - it more than doubled from Thursday's number! 

 
The nurse said it looked good and we proceeded to schedule my first u/s (!) for March 24. That should put me right smack in the mid-7 week mark.  I'm sure waiting for these betas will be nothing compared to the wait for this u/s!  For the record, I have never seen a yolk sac/baby, anything on an u/s - all other times I had m/c before getting the crotch cam so all I've seen is all black... this will literally be our first time and I think I might just faint!  


Please continue to keep us in your prayers,  I have felt wonderful knowing that I have all of you supporting me in prayer and in your wonderful comments of encouragement - how funny that our God is a 'high tech' God eh?  That He's using this blogging medium to bring together people like us - who have had similar life experiences and need the support and prayers?  Awesome! 


I'm floating on Cloud 9 right now and I hope I stay this way after March 24th :) 


Symptom watch: 

Smells are starting to make its appearance - I was on my way home from brunch with my parents and picked up a chicken carbo.nara sub for my hubby (he was studying for a finance exam) - and one whiff of it in the car totally grossed me out.  Then a few times during cooking and also when we went over for potluck at my in-laws on Sunday - the food I had made (which was delish) was giving me waves of gag-ness on the car ride up. 


Still tired ALL the time. I wake up tired, want to take a nap during the day, (which - btw, I took one this past Saturday pm and it was GLORIOUS - just fantastic!) - just low energy over all.

Frequent trips to the bathroom (both 1 and 2 actually) - and lately around 3 or 4 am-ish (just #1 LOL). 


Sorrre bbs.  Also enlarged aerolas (like holy saucers -- sorry for the visual) and a few darker veins too.


The cramps from last week have worn off - at least for now - but I will get the odd 'sensation' here and there but it may just be gas, who knows for sure ;)

Staying positive

Beta #1: 328  (14DPO - noon-ish)
Beta #2: 538 (16DPO - early am)


So I'm taking deep breaths again.  My heart sank a little (ok - alot) when the nurse told me my 2nd beta. It hasn't doubled perfectly, but good news is that it is on the rise.  I couldn't resist plugging it into the chart so this is what it looks like: 

She would like me to go and do a 3rd beta, if I can tomorrow so we can get the result for Monday.  I'm not exactly sure what to make of the numbers at this point.  I just googled for the last 10 mins on 'betas not doubling but still ok' and find myself having hope when I see that 60% or higher is usually still considered good but then moments later I'll stumble on a sad story and my heart sinks again.


So back over to you, God. Please continue to watch over us.  I'm giving my worries and anxiety to you, Lord. We will continue to trust that you have the best in store for us so however your story (and this new life) unfolds, we will be ok with.  My heart is delicate and my emotions are frail, but my faith in You is strong. 

On the symptom front, my boobs are quite sore (I'm wearing a sleeping bra now to support the girls), I have had lots of 'action' in the ute area - it is like AF cramping and the odd weird twinge (I can usually feel it more lying in bed at night) - no spotting.  Tired as anything - can't stop yawning.  Sometimes dizzy when I get up too fast.  



Thank you for your undying support and please continue to keep us in your prayers! 

Have a great weekend everyone! 

I wasn't prepared for this

328. 

My first beta results came back and it's 328. At around 14 DPO.


PRAISE GOD.

I asked the nice lady to repeat herself. and then double check the name on that test.  and then to confirm my birthday to make sure there were no other Wendy's with a beta score of that caliber. 

I'm blinking, I'm in shock and I am was not prepared for this number.  As my other betas in the last 2 pregnancies have been an Epic Fail in my books - I have never, ever been in the 100's , let alone the 300's at this stage in the game (and have known it - my 1st pregnancy I was naive and the dr. never asked me to go for blood tests - I had my first blood draw at 8 weeks - which then I was already m/c'ing) 


I know enough not to base everything off of the first beta, and I don't want to get my hopes up too much - because the real test will be to see if this puppy will double in tomorrow's draw. Please continue to send your prayers and positive vibes my way because we really need them.  I said in my post on Monday that I prayed for calmness and peace and every time my thoughts started running to 'that scary place' - I would be immediately comforted and soothed by asking for God's grace and for Him to step in. And He did. over and over again.  

Thank you for your positive comments and supportive prayers all you lovely ladies!  I've only been able to talk to DH and you ladies about all of this and it feels so great to have this 'secret army' of awesome chicas that know me better than some real-life ppl do! 

Please double! Please keep growing lil'bundle of cells!!

 

Darker

The line on the HPT this morning, that is. It was unmistakable and clear as could be.


I'm relieved to see it but the real 'hurdle' will be waiting for the upcoming betas this week. Please continue to pray that my heart and mind remain peaceful and for this miracle inside to keep growing healthy and strong. 

Thank you all for your comments and support from the last post - I had the best weekend just kicking back, lazying around and enjoying THE BEST HOCKEY GAME EVER. I seriously screamed so much at the tv last night I think I might have peed my pants.  Ok just kidding. Almost but not quite.

Tomorrow morning I'm going in for my first draw, and then likely again on Thursday I suspect. 

And away we go. ;)