Thanks ladies for your views on my last post. I've decided to go ahead with the screening and I have my u/s scheduled for this coming Saturday (when I'll be 12w3d!!). I've asked my mom to come along too so that should be fun! When she was pregnant with me, her and my dad had just immigrated to Canada so she didn't have anyone to go through this with - so hoping I can share as much as I can with her! But yes, after talking about it with DH, doing the screening will give us another piece of information that empowers us in this pregnancy. Although there are chances for false positives, etc. I was reminded (thanks Laura) that we did do the genetic testing back in December and everything came back normal so there isn't anything I should worry about.
So....I made a big step today. I got a widget. right. over .there. ---->
Seeing that floating baby on other blogs always made me wonder when I would ever be able to do that. Not only to be pregnant again but to actually have the confidence to 'declare' it so boldly. I am sorry if it upsets anyway to see yet another floating baby widget but it symbolizes something more to me and I hope you will understand.
It shows me that I have come a long way since last year. It shows me that by 'calling it out' will not jinx this pregnancy. It also shows me that I can, little by little, start celebrating this little life growing inside of me.
I'm still apprehensive in getting too caught up in 'future planning' (I still haven't picked up a book yet) but I promised myself that once I pass 12 weeks I will allow myself that room to grow. I need to grow mentally and emotionally (trust me I'm taking care of the physical growing part).
oh and in other news! We told our close group of friends on the weekend - there was screaming and hugging and a lot of high fives (for the men) so it was a great time all around. I actually even ended up talking to a lot of ppl in private about our journey, I felt that if I was asked how long we were trying and how everything was going, I should be upfront about it. The worse thing would be for me to pretend this was pregnancy #1 and that things have been hunky dorey. I hope that by talking about last year and what we went through can help ppl who may or may not be going through the same thing. The thing is you just never know so as far as being an open book about this, I'm finding myself a lot more comfortable in sharing than I was before.
I probably won't be doing a pregnancy questionnaire anytime soon, but my "bloated' belly is now more of a noticeable round protrusion. I call my tummy a food baby sometimes b/c after I eat, it just sticks out even more. Once and awhile I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and just smile at this unsightly bulge. I can't wait to see Sprout again this Saturday!