Monday, April 26, 2010

Rounding out 11 weeks

Thanks ladies for your views on my last post.  I've decided to go ahead with the screening and I have my u/s scheduled for this coming Saturday (when I'll be 12w3d!!). I've asked my mom to come along too so that should be fun! When she was pregnant with me, her and my dad had just immigrated to Canada so she didn't have anyone to go through this with - so hoping I can share as much as I can with her!  But yes, after talking about it with DH, doing the screening will give us another piece of information that empowers us in this pregnancy.  Although there are chances for false positives, etc. I was reminded (thanks Laura) that we did do the genetic testing back in December and everything came back normal so there isn't anything I should worry about.


So....I made a big step today. I got a widget. right. over .there. ----> 


Seeing that floating baby on other blogs always made me wonder when I would ever be able to do that. Not only to be pregnant again but to actually have the confidence to 'declare' it so boldly.  I am sorry if it upsets anyway to see yet another floating baby widget but it symbolizes something more to me and I hope you will understand.


It shows me that I have come a long way since last year. It shows me that by 'calling it out' will not jinx this pregnancy. It also shows me that I can, little by little, start celebrating this little life growing inside of me.  


I'm still apprehensive in getting too caught up in 'future planning' (I still haven't picked up a book yet) but I promised myself that once I pass 12 weeks I will allow myself that room to grow. I need to grow mentally and emotionally (trust me I'm taking care of the physical growing part). 


oh and in other news! We told our close group of friends on the weekend - there was screaming and hugging and a lot of high fives (for the men) so it was a great time all around. I actually even ended up talking to a lot of ppl in private about our journey, I felt that if I was asked how long we were trying and how everything was going, I should be upfront about it. The worse thing would be for me to pretend this was pregnancy #1 and that things have been hunky dorey. I hope that by talking about last year and what we went through can help ppl who may or may not be going through the same thing. The thing is you just never know so as far as being an open book about this, I'm finding myself a lot more comfortable in sharing than I was before. 


I probably won't be doing a pregnancy questionnaire anytime soon, but my "bloated' belly is now more of a noticeable round protrusion. I call my tummy a food baby sometimes b/c after I eat, it just sticks out even more. Once and awhile I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and just smile at this unsightly bulge. I can't wait to see Sprout again this Saturday! 

12 comments:

  1. Wow you're almost at 12 weeks,such an amazing milestone. It's wonderful that you will share your u/s with your mom, I'm sure she'll remember that forever. Good for you for deciding to get the testing, it will be one less thing to worry about when it's all over. Laura made a good point that your genetic testing went fine, so don't stress too much. And even if something comes back positive, take it with a grain of salt as there's lots of false positives with this test. I'm wishing you the best of luck this Saturday please let us know how things go :)

    Bravo for adding your widget, I know that's a huge step to take. It's like you read my mind when you wrote about how you wondered when you could post one. I too see others widgets and think, will I ever be at that point? It shows you're moving forward. I have allowed myself to dream, I can't help it, but I know it's risky. I hope once you're past your 12 week scans you'll jump in to the deep end and enjoy all the fun things about being pregnant!

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  2. Happy 11 weeks!! I didn't add my little widget til' like 25-26 weeks. I was too scared, as well. I'm glad you took that step. We deserve to feel like normal pregnant women once in a while. I looked at the 12 wk screen as just an extra opportunity to see the baby. So, enjoy seeing your little bean wiggling around. Does he have a nickname? :)

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  3. Hope you get some great views on Saturday. Congrats on sharing the news and your new "widget"!!

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  4. almost through the first trimester... definitely something to be excited about *hugs*

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  5. Wow almost 12 weeks!! I am so happy for you!! It took me a bit to put up my widget too and I didn't touch a book until I was 14 weeks! Can't wait to hear how your little Sprout is doing on Sat. You and hubby just made your first big decision as parents! Isn't it amazing?? You are doing an awesome job!

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  6. Almost 12 weeks! Yayyy!!! I was sooooo scared when we went for our 12 week scan. I just couldn't convince myself we actually had created a perfect little baby. And I was still a little nervous about how we got pregnant on Clomid. But then we saw her and she was just that....perfect. And after that scan I finally began to relax...a little. lol It wasn't until I could feel her every day that I really did relax a lot. Funny cause my Dr. told my husband around 9 weeks, she won't completely relax until she can feel baby within her every day.
    The 12 week scan is amazing how much you can see and how much your little sprout will already look like a teeny tiny baby! Can't wait to see pics!!

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  7. I'm sure it doesn't feel this way to you, but I feel like your weeks are flying by! I completely understand the ticker thing. I waited until something like 16 weeks. It's a scary step.

    I'm keeping everything crossed for you that your next ultrasound will be perfect and you'll be announcing your wonderful news to the whole world very soon!

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  8. Hooray for your widget! It is a big step, and I am so glad you did it! Hooray for Sprout! :)

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  9. Yay! I brought my mother-in-law to our 12 week scan since she was here visiting. I hope to bring my mom to an appointment in the future, but she's out of state. I applaud your widget! I'm personally not ready to post one, but I am proud of you. :) Take care!

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  10. I can't wait to see your pictures! Have a wonderful time.

    And it is hard to put up a widget... but I'm glad you did!

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  11. Oh, you are so amazingly close to starting the 2nd trimester! I laughed at the part where you said you haven't opened a book yet...I have done a lot of reading since I found out I'm pregnant, but it was a big step to actually buy a book, instead of just borrowing from the library. Good luck on Saturday!

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  12. Ahhh~ and we thought we'd never get here, right? :) Another 11 weeks later, it'll still seem surreal. So happy your lil sprout's doing well and good to see you're opening up. I know that's so hard...slowly but surely! I know what you mean about your belly being bigger after you eat. Sometimes I wonder why i'm not showing that much but after I eat - oh boy does it ever show! Granted 80% of it might all just be food but still makes me happy ;). You're coming to the end of your first Tri! Congratulations!!

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