My emotion has now turned to frustration - I'm fairly proactive about my healthcare but at this point, I feel like my 'fate' lies in someone else's hands.
Long story short, I had originally given the name of the OB that I happened to see in the emergency room during my first m/c - other than her, I knew of none other to suggest to my doctor (plus she was 5 mins away from my house) -- then I got talking to a few friends and was convinced that I should go with someone that I know has had success with etc. So I call my GP's office last week to change referrals and the receptionist is all like -well, I just made the other appt for you - and basically gave me a hard time until I just said - can you please just do this for me?!
Unfortunately, it turns out my friends' OB is booked all the way until Oct and I was like heck I'm sorry I can't wait -- so I had another OB in mind (b/c now that I've been talking to more gf's, the more positive stories - I know, I'm desperate but I can only go by what I know from other ppl, and ppl that I trust)
So I called my GP's office and the receptionist was just down right rude to me - she said - well - it's your fault - I got you an appt on the 23rd and you went and cancelled - you're just going to have to go and make the appt yourself -- I don't have time to keep making your referrals - do you know I do 50 of these in a day --- I was SO upset I said - I'M SORRY (?!) but I've been through 2 m/c in the past 6 months and I am only doing what I think is right for me to see the right specialist - even THEN she was like - well - I can't promise anything - you'll have to call the OB and confirm a date first -- THEN i'll fax them a referral.
What kind of person is that? I know I might be 'needy' and ideally, I would have liked to get it 'right' the first time, but since I wasn't booked for anything anyways, is it not my right to see the OB I think would have my best interest at heart?
The receptionist finally gave in and said 'fine just give me the information' -- and then to rub salt in the wound before she hung up - she's like - well i hope for your sake you don't get end up with an appt in Feb 2010 with this new OB
Just needed to vent it all out before I go to sleep tonight.