Thursday, November 19, 2009

End of week thoughts

Well I'm at the tail end of another 2WW.  AF is supposed to be due tomorrow but I have no clue what to expect this time around. I have been a bit absent minded about this 2WW - but I will have the odd feeling once in a while and pause to wonder if "that" was a symptom?

But then the thought quickly vanishes and gets replaced with "why are you torturing yourself - it's just going to end like how the others did". And then on with my day I go. 

I am half hoping I am but also hoping that I'm not. 

What a weird feeling to have eh? (don't mind the eh? it's a Cdn thing LOL) I am not going to rush out and buy pee sticks either - I am going to wait it out over the weekend b/c AF could very well just be late if she doesn't arrive 'on time' tomorrow on CD 28.  B/c last cycle after my 3rd m/c she arrived on CD 24.  Oh and side note, I also have been popping in progesterone suppositories since O so who knows if that's why I have been feeling phantom symptoms.

Hmm. 

In other news, Christmas is fast approaching and I don't know what I was thinking when I decided to host not one, not two, but THREE parties at my house over the holidays.  Am I nuts?  I think just a bit. :)  But secretly I love entertaining and all that jazz - my girlfriends call me Martha. LOL

So these past few weeks I have been gearing up for the first one early December - I am thinking the tree needs to go up this weekend - it's not too early, is it? Hubby has been working a lot this month on the weekends b/c its year end where he works so it's been so much fun hanging with my lil' sis and doing girlie things like going to Starbucks (I get so excited when those holiday cups come out!) and of course, shopping till we drop!

Project Me is going well with the minor exception that I have not worked out all this week.  I feel slightly guilty but I am so tired these days from work that I just don't have the mojo to do it at 5:30 am anymore.  I'll have to get my booty moving again tho, b/c I have a few new holiday outfits hanging in my closet (unbeknownst to hubby of course teehee) that I want to show off at all those parties I'll be hosting. :)

Will keep y'all posted as to what this weekend reveals!

7 comments:

  1. 3 parties??!! I think you are crazy! I can understand wanting a positive than not wanting one at the same time. Dang m/c make ya crazy. Will be praying for you this weekend.

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  2. Wendy, I pray that God make your heart content and comfortable with whatever the weekend has in store for you. It takes a lot of patience and self control to not run out and buy "pee sticks", but I applaud your strong will. I've committed myself to just waiting it out the few extra days as well (aside from this month when there was no need at all). Hang in there!

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  3. Wendy, three parties is a little crazy! LOL! BUT I am there with you! I have lost two babies, and one was due this December...so I will be keeping myself VERY busy around Christmas! I know how you feel about the whole "why am I even getting my hopes up" thing...because every month I feel the same way. And I always say that I wont be sad, or upset if I am not pregnant, and that it wont ruin my day...but really...IT DOES...Hope you can keep busy! BUT you will be able to! :)

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  4. Three parties?? Well you will certainly be busy this holiday!! Should be a blast, though.
    I can understand you thinking, why get my hopes up. But it will happen for you one day. I hope that is sooner than later for you. Thinking of you.

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  5. You will certainly be a busy girl this holiday season. *hugs* We will be thinking of you.

    I will also be thinking of you this weekend. *hugs*

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  6. 3 parties is awesome. I'm jealous!

    I'll keep hoping that this month is the one for you!

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  7. exciting! wonder what's in store for you in the next few days? keep us posted. =)

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