Thursday, November 12, 2009

that kid in highschool - you know the one

I want to preface this post by saying that I am filled with joy, absolutely thrilled, over-the-moon for all of my fellow bloggers who have had recent BFPs and all of you previous IFers now-turned-2nd trimester mommies-to-be out there.  You have all waited so long for this miracle, and been through so much to get there and now that it is finally happening, it is so great to hear about your journey now, from a different perspective. 

But still, I just can't help this feeling that won't go away. I'm that sad, lowly kid that has been picked last for the 'winning team'. I was fortunate never to have to experience that (as I was usually was the team captain) but now - I have slowly and silently become the one that is the odd man out, the benched kid hanging out by the gatorade cooler.

*Sigh*.  Just having one of those days where it seems like it's everyone but me.  Pity party for one, thank you.

9 comments:

  1. Wendy, I think I am confused....aren't you in the 2ww? *hugs* Either way...your time will come...I know it will. Thinking and praying for you.

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  2. Ah Wendy--I'm right there with you! It's not me...yet...but I pray that it is soon for both of us. I'm thinking of you and praying for you!

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  3. You're not alone, but I totally get how you could feel that way! I'm going to see my "guru" in december as well. I can't wait to hear how things go for you. Keep the faith!

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  4. Jessica - I am in the 2ww but I don't want to jinx or fool myself I guess. Thanks ladies for the encouragement and support - praying and hoping right there with you too!

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  5. Wendy....I feel that pain all too well. I am trying to stay cautiously optimistic. *hugs* I apologize for misunderstanding.

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  6. *HUGS* I was that kid in school sometimes, and it sucks. It also sucks to watch the people around me announce their pregnancies at 8 weeks without a second thought. It will be your turn... It's only a matter of time.

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  7. I'm sending you some love. I wish we could all just be picked already and no one would be left out.
    You've been so encouraging to everyone and I will continue to be here cheering and hoping for you.

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  8. Well I will be hear waiting to hear when you get your BFP and have many great Beta draws!! I can't wait for that for you and to join us that have recently been blessed. You have alway's been there with encouraging words during my hard time's and I will be here!!

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  9. Wendy, we have SO many things in common! I too feel happy for everyone else who got their BFP...but what about me? Why can't I have a baby? Why have I lost the ones I wanted sooo much!? I am glad to have found that I am not the only one who has mixed emotions from all of this....

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