BFFs - update

So I have mixed feelings about our get together the other night. I ended up spilling all and BFF was really emotional about it all and so it felt great to finally get it out and have her be included on my crazy world these past few months. But I guess the part that I have 'mixed feelings' about is that even though she received it well, I still don't feel like her and I are on the same page about other things in life, in general. I left that night feeling a bit out of sorts, but I guess to BFF, we were 'right on track' because she called me a bit later for a night cap and gushed about how even though we don't speak as often as we used to, it's like we pick right back up where we left off. Hmm. Clearly I must be good at pretending everything is 'just like it used to be? Huh. I do love her and treasure her friendship, but I don't think my outlook has changed on the current dynamics of our friendship - and that's fine too. I know that she is a true friend and has my best interests at heart and will be there when I do need her, so for that I am grateful.