I looked back at my DH in the waiting room as I was led into the exam room. The technician told us that she would come and get him "once we got ready and can see the baby"
I could feel my heart in my throat as I lay down on the examination table. The sweet older Polish ultrasound technician kept saying "don't worry, my darling, everything will be fine. click. click. click. See?"
I looked to the now-turned monitor and I could see my sweet lil' baby blob, and right in the middle an unmistakable, fast flickering heartbeat. Tears streamed down my face as I felt an incredible wave of relief come over me and I was just in complete awe of what I was looking at. What I've never been able to see in the last 3 pregnancies. What I've been waiting to experience. PRAISE GOD!!!
She did a few more angles and did some more measurements, and then I was able to go and empty my bursting bladder to come back for the crotch cam session. She also went to go and get DH in the waiting room so he could come in for the real measurements and 2nd part.
As she proceeded, I glanced over at DH's face - he was in complete awe and amazement as he was trying to figure out which was what (at this time, he was only staring at my ute LOL) and with a turn of the wand, we saw the baby and that lil' heartbeat again. It brings such a smile to my face thinking back to that heartbeat. It is just so amazing and it's something I will never ever forget. DH exclaimed something like 'WOW you can see a beating heart!' and we just looked at each other and beamed.
Then I calmed myself down a bit because there was still the big question mark of whether or not this lil' bean was measuring on target.
Exactly on the mark. 7w0d. Which, counting back to my LMP - is precisely where I should be at today. She showed me the yolk sac, and where the baby's head would likely start to form.
Now the heartbeat. Holding breath again.
She had to try twice to 'get in there' to get a recording of the heartbeat - I seriously couldn't breathe.
The smile stayed permanently plastered on my face after that.
So all in all, beaner is measuring 0.95cm, 7w0d, and 142 bpm. I haven't even googled numbers or anything I'm just so so thankful that there is actually a baby in there and everything looks on track at the moment.
I went over across the hall to my RE to stock up on some more P-sups. I was happy to finally meet Erin, a sweet girl that does the RPL studies for my doctor and tell her the good news. She was the one who had been giving me my betas over the phone and we had formed a bit of a friendship. She told me to get back over to the u/s desk to book my repeat for next week. NEXT WEEK! I get to see beaner again so soon? I guess it's procedure for them to make sure s/he is still growing - I'm not complaining of course, any chance I get to see this amazing sight I'll take!
After we left, we went across the street to have brunch before I dropped DH off at work. He recounted his side of the story as he was waiting for me in waiting area. He said he looked at the technician's face to get a read and was so relieved to see that she was smiling. He knew then everything was ok.
I will try my best not to get worked up about what I will see on the 8w0d ultrasound next week because today, my bloggy friends, today I saw my baby blob and I'm celebrating!!
Here is s/he's first picture!! (I can't stop looking at it - even though I can't really make anything of it yet :)